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I realise kan a lot of my typing is very schematic. I'm literally typing as I say word per word but they always sound dead when it's being written idek how bloggers can write so entertainingly.


Anyway I asked my friend recently, "Do you have anyone you admire? Like a celebrity or people on the Internet that you look up to?" and she replied saying no. 

Then I'm like, "Same. I don't think I have anyone..." 
(Lies. I actually have a person in mind, but malas plak nk explain who to her lol)  


Then she said "Eh, you like Vivy kan?" and I was such in a state of denial hearing that hahah. Mostly because so many people are only fond of her because of the trend. But after some time I gave in, I do actually admire her. I happened to bring up 'Vivy' in A LOT of conversations with my friends and that's why my friend thinks so.

Now I just wanna tell, on the reasons to why I think I always talk about her. See, I'm admitting it for real trus #ambikkau.

It's a rare thing to see the life of someone who's successful and at the same time, so real on social media. Vivy is someone who is very brave in showcasing her life, she is good at making herself seemed very transparent and open to everything. And that is why I think a lot of people like her.

What I like about her most is actually her effort. In everything. Do you know how hard it is to be an ambassador, content creator AND running a company all at the same time? Plus, being a mum. What she's doing is daunting. Yeah people may see it as fun and true, things do get fun but how much fun can it get? These stuff are humanely tiring and Vivy is pulling off everything so well.

I'm talking from a blogger's perspective. A student's perspective. A youtuber-wannabe's perspective. I have contents but making them takes such a strong willpower to begin with, so in the end most things just died out. But I remembered how Vivy said in one of her previous blog posts where she will try to post an entry daily. On top of posting Instagram pictures every single day. For someone as busy as her, I seriously have so much respect for her having such a will.

And you know what's even better? She really made it happen for some time. She had seriously won all of my respect as a person.

Even as a student, I am not even as close to being that rajin. She wouldn't show it but I bet you, life isn't always easy and she must've had her share of terrible days. Being able to suppress that and still put up positive contents makes her seem very good at handling her feelings and stress. 

I really like her vibe. She is an ambitious young woman. She is well-aware of what is happening around her, either people are talking about her, or just her not knowing certain things. She's just not afraid of voicing her concerns, also making it sound very mundane, which most people try so hard to hide. You see, everybody can be clueless at times and there is NOTHING wrong with discovering something new. That is what Vivy always portray herself as - a learner and a sinner. It's what keeps her grounded, and what keeps me motivated to become grateful and more hardworking towards my own goals. In life, I learnt to keep those people who gets the best out of me and virtually, I think Vivy kinda help me too.

In any rare cases Vivy Sofinas Yusof reads this, I just wanna say... You outshine people just by being you and you did good. Also, isn't there any way to be a dUCKie without spending a bomb? Lol.

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My next admiration is a guy. Younger than me, but wiser and much more passionate. An Indonesian Content Creator, Agung Hapsah.

He is such a talented and one of the most passionate person I came to know (not in real life obvs). What I truly like about him is his editing skills. He is not just your regular YouTuber tau, he puts effort into ALL his videos. Basically his editing just won't ever disappoint anyone. And ofc, learning won't come easy but I still respect his time management for able to cope school and social life as a YouTuber, plus uploading AMAZING quality contents every now and then.

The honest reason why I admire him is probably because I'm always jealous of his editing. His After Effects and filming is cray cray wehh. Not enough with his usual high quality debatable topics, but also great filmography as well. Here's his video to make you understand me better:



If that wasn't cool, I think even the world can't impress you. 

His channel is just my fav. 

So yeah, those are 2 of my current admiration. I was not trying to be all that schematic and give answers such as "My mum/dad is my admiration" though that can sometimes be true.


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I can't believe how fast time flies. My semester is already ending! Felt like I'm still in my first year of diploma, when really it has already been my second. 

The time has come where we gotta choose our electives which indirectly means choosing our major!! As I already am an IT student, the rest of the question is which part of IT am I leaning towards.

My choices of subjects (for next sem) are; Artificial Intelligence (AI), Database Administration (DBA), Networking, Active Directory and Digital Media Design. 

Throughout all my 3 semesters up until now, I have not quite been a fan of networking subjects. Things that deal with Operating System, the computer hardware, configuration and such topic are my least interest. That is why I am rejecting Networking and Active Directory, since they are both coming from the same roots. However, many of my close friends are interested in networking which kinda pushes me aside from the group. 

Now, AI has been one of my considerable subjects ever since I became an IT student. But since robotics and physics aren't really what I would deal well with, even looking at myself right now, so I decided this too might not work best for me. However, this is also what a lot of my friends are considering, but a lot of them are still unsure because of Additional Mathematics. I'm expecting lots of formulas and calculation in this one for sure. Which is also not what I would settle happily with.

Leaving my options with DBA and Digital Media Design. Surprisingly, database subjects has been one of my favourite, because they are pretty easy to understand and comprehend. In addition, programming is also very satisfying to me and I guess, my wish of studying Software Engineering might turn out to be possible in my near future if I keep this passion up... who knows?

For Digital Media Design, I am expecting lots of Adobe stuff again. Even though the previous multimedia-related subjects have not been so nicely graded, I pray that this won't be a bad choice for me. I am probably looking forward to learning After Effects and motion graphics through this subject. And really wish I can put this subject into good use. Even though, I'm aware that I got no talent for this. Oh well, screw it!


So, that's it for the update. Really not sure what to expect from each classes, but we shall see. Guess we just gotta go experiment them next sem huhu.


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Recently I've been relistening to the song from Meet The Robinson, 'Little Wonders' by Rob Thomas. It is one of my favourite song of all time, because it's from a movie I actually teared after watching during my childhood. It still touches my heart deeply, even after so many years.

To my surprise, Eisyah also listened to the same old song around the same time as I was (she posted in her instastory).

Eisyah's instastory
My YouTube history
Therefore, I just wanna reminisce what a wonder this life of mine has truly been. Here's to 40 of my little wonders;

1. Mars is my all time favourite chocolate bar. Twix is my current.
2. English feels more home than the Malay language itself.
3. The best part of any fish is its head and crispy tail. 
4. Sunshine is better than rainy days.
5. The secure feeling is when I leave the house with my powerbank at 100%.
6. The best morning view is of green hills and blue sky.
7. Coffee smell is the best wake-up call.
8. Beef wins over chicken and fish.
9. Walking to class means I am still able and well.
10. When class ends before the scheduled time.
11. My notebook finishes along side with my total classes.
12. Having extra supplies at the right time.
13. Smiling to the mirror in the morning means it's a start to a good day.
14. When my phone falls but never cracks.
15. Emptying the dustbin feels like clearing off my thoughts.
16. Not having any weekend plans.
17. When cats listen to my call.
18. When I have a reason to dial home.
19. Getting praises from a stranger.
20. Receiving 50 cent coins.
21. Hearing mum asks "How are you doing?".
22. Able to hug and fight my brothers without reason.
23. Getting promo codes for your Grab rides.
24. Turkey ham, tuna and cheese makes the best sandwich.
25. Finding someone who prefers roti tampal instead of roti telur too.
26. Catching a flying object.
27. Earning money while having fun from doing what you love.
28. Overcoming that writer's block.
29. Knowing the road to my destination.
30. Understanding theories when most people don't.
31. McD is better than KFC. 
32. Dadih is my favourite pudding. 
33. Nata de coco is my favourite topping.
34. Pepperoni beef is my favourite pizza.
35. Dreaming about the person I like.
36. Waking up with gradient-looking chapped lips.
37. Watching my favourite choreo over and over again without growing tired of it.
38. Catching on few words in sign language or Korean.
39. Performing in front of a crowd.
40. Peeing clear liquid and pooping every morning.

I guess that should be enough of appreciation for now. Judging by all the food-related wonders, food is such a loyal company. Also, hope that last one didn't gross you out.

The question now is; What are YOUR little wonders?


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I just got off a phone call with my mum. Wasn't the best call (or conversation) I've had. It's been awhile since my eyes are as red and sore....

I have no idea what's going on, but I've been relatively quiet lately. I listen to old Disney songs, on top of the HSM playlists I've been jamming through for a couple of months now. I get sensitive over things I used to overlook. Now, I feel like going through puberty again ugh.

All I can say is it's not easy staying sane. Always gotta remind yourself to be ok and don't get too overwhelmed by people. I also can't seem to find comfort by telling people my problems. It's hard to even face the problem as it is, let alone getting criticised for it. See idek what I want exactly.

This is why I don't like being too happy. Because sadness would follow-up not long after.

I always have problems with money.
I always have problems with friends.
I always have problems with the way I dress.
I always have problems with my face.
I always have problems with trust.

But I overlook all those because it hurts... so... bad... to think of something I can hardly do anything about. These problems are bigger than just mere words, obviously.

Imagine worrying every single day about which meal not to eat, because you won't have enough for the week. And at the same time, you can't open up to people because 1) no one cares (not kidding, bcos what can they do) and 2) it's not as easy as you think of not getting embarrassed by it. I am not looking for pity but I'm just giving an overview of my kind of day here in the university. Not many people see that this is what some of us are facing. I bet you, even my parents doesn't know about this.

You must be thinking, don't my parents support me? Here I mean it when I say I'm not rich. My family is average, but life hardly gets easier for us financially. I don't get pocket money every week like most people do. The best thing I can do as a daughter is to ask as little or the least frequent as I can for money. 

But I guess it should be better now, because I can finally depend on my school loan. Hopefully.

Imagine sticking to only one friend. We share our lives too much and tolerating isn't as easy with our  own ego. Like everybody has their days, but sometimes it's weird because when it's her bad day she can whine to the world. Then when it's my turn, I usually just keep quiet. But people don't see that's how I am and apparently I'm hard to deal with.

Imagine hearing people say "I'll buy you something for your wardrobe" as a saying that my fashion is unbearable. You can buy me anything you please, but even when saying it in a supposing friendly manner, it still delivers the same hurtful message. You never know how much I cherish every hole in my clothes, every shabby looking scarfs I own, they mean a lot to me because that's all I have. So that's how I shall live. I too am guilty that I can't afford everything as trendy as all of my peers. But do you know, how hard I resist for these things? Because my state of life is not suited for these kind of luxury like other people are having. 

Imagine having a bumpy and red face throughout your whole secondary school life. I can still smile and be confident because I overlook everything to avoid myself from feeling like it controls me. But when people don't dare to touch your face because of how 'scarred' it looked, yeah... convince me to not feel hurt. But then again, I never said I gave up on changing that. I only meant for people to stop making the wound bigger for me. Please.

Trust is built when you can share deep conversations together. But these conversations never end well whenever I truly say what I mean. Because saying things unfiltered will affect the friendship which are already as shaky as it is, and for me to be totally blunt about everything. It's also not right when your friend is just as unstable as you are to be listening to your problematic point of view.


This has been an emotional ranty post. I probably just miss being home and alone. Or that I am just hungry after only having a single meal today. Anyway if you are feeling down, hope some of my problems cheer you up for making you think you are not alone. Have a blessed day guys!


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Recently, I've been up for contests that I can participate in order for me to gain anything out of it. Frankly speaking, money is always the goal... Starting from this semester, I wanna be as independent as I can from my parents' support. With that being said, I've actually planned it beforehand ever since my sem break few months back.

I did the promoters job as a side-hustle for a couple of weekends before my sem starts, to earn some cash. I applied for a convertible loan from my State's office and finally passed all the stages. I submitted my poetry for a National contest though I didn't win anything. I entered a talent show at my university on Monday, performed spoken word poetry then managed to win 2nd place (cash prize yaww). I entered a National video contest about our environment and still waiting for the result. WATCH HERE. Also entered the 1theK dance cover contest, and still not know of the result. WATCH HERE.

UPDATE: I didn't win 1theK dance cover contest this time, but still proud of it for being one of my best effort so far lol.

UPDATE 2: But alhamdulillah, I won 3rd place for the National video competition - MyTreevolution.

All in all, I'm trying a lot more things than I did last sem. Just as planned. Some may lead to one place, some may end there. But the thing that matters is my effort and willingness upon completing every single plan. Even after all those hardwork, and if people tell me it isn't that great, at least to me it felt the best and that is all that matters. Win or lose is a bet I am willing to take, even if I'm doing it wrong I don't want to regret not giving a shot, so don't take it too hard if your opinion was ignored. I wanna prove to myself that I can handle things on my own. All I'm asking is for your support, nothing more and hopefully I can manage it well. Amiin.


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This will be a story about the hardwork in getting the Pinjaman Negeri Selangor Sesi 2/2017.

Please be aware that I don't usually apply for these kind of loans and stuff, so I might sounded jakun to all you experienced people... but read on if you wanna learn something (if any) from it.

14.10.2017 (SATURDAY)

Just few days after the 2-week mark since my interview (you can check out my interview questions and tips here), I received one of the most anticipated text for the longest time.


"RM0.00 SUKS: TKWBNS - SEMAK KEPUTUSAN TAWARAN PINJ. PELAJARAN NEG. S'GOR DI ~link~ BERMULA 14 OKTOBER 2017 (SABTU). T.KASIH. "


OMGOMGOMG excited dia Tuhan je yang tahu. Berdebar jantung sambil tunggu internet load cam siput time tu. Then Alhamdulillah...

Dia ada kata 'sukacita' so that means GOOD NEWS. Nothing else matters.

I proceed to look at the required documents. And one of the first thing is to update who your 2 Penjamin are. Penjamin is somewhat the person who will be required to pay for you in case you are unable to pay off the loan yourself. In my case, are my parents. 

The requirements are basically gaji more than RM1500 and their age. First penjamin doesn't have the age limit, only the 2nd one does which is not more than 45 years old. My dad is 45 while my mum is (as of 2017) 44 years old. So they are both eligible in my case. Your relatives and friends can be a penjamin if they don't mind. But leceh la if orang luar, so better close-knit fam like maybe older siblings ke.

Also, penjamin will be needed to sign off the contract together with you. So make the right choice in terms of accessibility as well. Kang dah pilih mak cik pak cik semua, dah kena travel 4-5 jam nak amik tandatangan diorang je. Tak pasal-pasal makan masa.

You are given about 2 weeks to submit. My last submission day is on the 31st October. BUT if you can submit earlier, the better. You can go to the SUK directly like what my dad did. Therefore, no need to wait to submit on the given time and day exactly. 31/10/2017 is a Monday and for me who have classes here in my uni in Melaka is sooo not worth the travel and skipping classes. Thank God my dad called up to find out what the Majlis is all about and turns out it's just hari penyerahan dokumen semata, nothing grand pun. That's what I was told tho lol. That's why I didn't go, so only God knows what really happened.

Step 1: Find 2 penjamin.
Step 2: Open a bank account.

Keep in mind that the bank needed is Bank Muamalat and no other. In my area, there's one nearby. So on my mid-sem break I went with Ka Mun to open an account and we got it done within 1 hour or so. It was the one in PJ at Jaya One.

Things to bring: Surat Tawaran (not stated but good to bring a hardcopy with you), IC, Student ID (don't forget this too!) and a pen.

Step 3: Upload the bank book and fill up the penjamin details online.
Step 4: Printing all the documents including dem 5 copies of contract forms.

This may be the hardest part. Printing all those papers is one thing. Understanding what they want is another.

Your parents will need their photocopied ICs, their payslips (with pengesahan by higher authority) and their signatures.

You will need your IPT's pengesahan (must be stamped on the provided form), your surat tawaran masuk IPT (and also pengesahan by your lecturer or faculty's office if it's the printed copy) with loads and loads of signature. Also, you need a passport picture to paste on one of the pages. Not sure if they mind the background colour of the picture tho. I pasted mine with a white background. The picture is A MUST btw.

Prepare the 3 envelopes too with your name and 2 penjamin's names and address. What I'm saying here are all written in the senarai semakan, so rajin-rajin la print extra and study leklok.

Step 5: Gathering all. Don't miss anything.

After we found out the Majlis Pengesahan is not necessary to attend, my parents quickly decided to come to my uni in Melaka instead of me coming back. The purpose was to just get my signatures and to hand-in all my part of the work to them. So that my dad can hand-in to the SUK the soonest. 

Step 6: Hand-in the completed documents to the SUK office.

After that, fuuuh it was all good.

My dad was told that the money will be bank-in half early December and hopefully they are telling the truth hahah. Now, let the waiting game begins.


UPDATE (1.12.2017): The money was banked-in after a month from the closing date of submission, which in my case was 31st October. I got it in lump sum btw.

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This blog post will be related to the process of before, during and after my interview for Pinjaman Negeri Selangor Sesi 2/2017.

Ok. If you came across this post by chance, it might mean that you are currently in a similar situation as  I did. Or... you can simply be reading this for pleasure, either way works for you. First and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS IF YOU ALREADY GOT A CALL BACK! You did a great job for looking this up hahah.

PRE-INTERVIEW

28.9.2017 (THURS)

So going back, after my online submission for this Pinjaman Pelajaran Selangor, I received an SMS within 2 weeks. From the Setiausaha Kerajaan (SUK) people. It came in my message inbox smtg like 

"RM0.00 SUKS: TKWBNS - Semak keputusan panggilan temuduga Pinjaman Pelajaran bla bla Sesi 2/2017 di link bla bla"

My heart was pumping hard. The only thing my brain registered was "temuduga" so in my head I straight up thought... I'M IN!! BUT silly me. That text was only meant for applicants to check it for ourselves lol. #facepalm especially when I realised I needed to check their website AFTER I told my friends who were around me that I got through lol. I was still clueless for the next 12 hours before I can check my results, bcos I was out the entire freaking day and connection was real bad YAY.

Alhamdulillah when I finally did my semakan, it was such a relief to know that I GOT THROUGH FOR REAL!!

Fun fact: Wherever you may be studying in Msia, they'll come to you. Your place of interview will be determined by your current state that you're in. So takyah la ngada-ngada nak balik sangat. Unless if you left behind all those much needed documents (*cough* me *cough*), then go la balik huehue.

Let me just be direct and spoon feed ya'll in what you should at least know.

1. The name of Sultan Selangor. Full name, may I add.
D.Y.M.M Sultan Sharafuddin Idris Shah Al-Haj ibni Almarhum Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Shah Al-Haj
2. The name of his wife
D.Y.M.M Tengku Permaisuri Norashikin
3. The Raja Muda a.k.a his son
D.Y.T.M Tengku Amir Shah
4. The Menteri Besar
Y.A.B Dato' Seri Mohamed Azmin b. Ali
5. The districts in Selangor
Name all 9. Tip: Refer to the map for visual aid.
6. Benefits for rakyat
Previously known as Merakyatkan Ekonomi Selangor (MES) but now it's Inisiatif Peduli Rakyat (IPR). As of the time I'm typing this, there are up to IPR 17. Here's the link.
7. Your Naib Canselor's name
8. The name of current Agong
Yang di-Pertuan Agong Sultan Muhammad V (ke-15)
9. Governing politician party
Pakatan Rakyat (PR)
10. General government updates
Refer websites like SelangorKini or IPR Selangor.

That's my 10 points, now onto my personal experience. The sort of questions that I faced.

Btw, everything was conducted using the Malay Language. However, you can somewhat use bahasa pasar, though it'll be best to try and minimize as it is a formal occurence.

I came pretty on-time (30 mins before 9am). There was already a namelist being displayed on the door, and I noticed that our name was listed according to our institutions. Apparently Universiti and Politeknik candidates undergoes different panel according to our namelists.

There was no one in-charge in the room when I arrived. But not long after, 2 lady officers came in and we were given our namelist to be passed around and were required to sign right by our names and to jot-down our sequence as we pass along. I was the 2nd candidate to sign on my particular list. Turns out I'm the 2nd person to go in. Wow.

Note: Make sure in your Borang Permohonan, you have your passport picture neatly pasted. Please never leave anything blank whenever you can. As a rule of thumb, ALWAYS KEEP AN EXTRA PICTURE IN YOUR WALLET/ PURSES! It'll save you in a lot of different urgent occasions, trust me.

I encountered some unpleasant start, when I intentionally didn't bring the complete documents. BCOS I particularly mailed my hardcopy of documents beforehand, such as my parents' paycheck and their ICs along with all the requirement that was being asked during online submission. Since I did so through the ADUN's office, we were told they'll send it directly to the SUK office for us. Therefore, my dad assured me that I don't need to bring another copy of the same things, as we literally handed in everything through my ADUN's office.

But the thing that made me pissed was that the lady there told me, "Nanti you pandai-pandai la settle sendiri dengan panel. Panel mesti tak suka". Then give me the 'tak ikhlas' look. Ugh, talk about working ethics.
I was just like, "Hm ok". Fine I settle sendiri la, my business anyway since I am well-aware of why I did what I did. No need to be all bici la. Then she told me to head out to the first panel. 

I can't tell how stupid the procedure was. Chaotic and terrible flow of pre-interview. Since I was the 2nd person, there was literally no other candidate I could reach out to ask. Being the clever and 2nd year me, I pretty much can agak where the suitable room would be. Thankfully, I bumped into a Mak cik who seemed to work there, then I asked where Panel 1 is. She brought me into this meeting room where they labeled Panel 1, 2, 3 all on the same long meeting table. 

She was Panel 2. Lol. 

I was the first to arrive... Where's the 1st candidate who went on before me?

Through all the kecoh-ness outside, I heard one of the officer's annoying tone directing the candidate where to go. It was the 1st candidate. And what I thought was a possible one-to-two interview turns out to be a one-to-one, and so I was kicked out. No kidding. The lady asked me, "Awak nombor brape?" "Dua" "Kenapa awak yang duduk?" while bringing in the lost 1st candidate. PADAHAL TADI SURUH GI KE PANEL 1. NOW LARANG PLAK ORANG MASUK. What is their problem?!?

I was so pissed. Ugh. Still annoyed thinking bout it. Ugh.

While waiting furiously, I dialed my dad to confirm again about all the confusing mailing process that we went through. We talked on the phone for about 2 mins or so, and not long after I hang up, the 1st candidate walked out. He's done. As I walked in and sat down, my dad rang me up again. Probably he thought of another thing to say. THAT WAS JUST HOW QUICK THE PREVIOUS CANDIDATE WAS. Like a blink of an eye.

I was welcomed in a very friendly manner. Compared to those 2 ladies outside, the interviewer who was a lady about my mother's age seemed to be very much nicer. She handed me (for what I've seen the 3rd time), my namelist and asked me to sign it, while I handed her my salinan of documents (ofcos beserta pengesahan from my Ketua Jabatan Fakulti) with the original.

Note: Just in case, get the cop pengesahan from your lecturers or whoever suited, and their signatures for all your photocopied documents even when they don't specifically ask for them.

IV: So awak dah berapa semester?
Me: Technically 3, tapi termasuk semester 0 so ada 4. Semester 0 tu khas untuk ambik subjek wajib.
IV: So sekarang CGPA awak 3.58. Bagus bagus. 
Me: (was awed la jugak walaupun apa la sangat CGPA gitu)
IV: Cerita sikit tentang latar belakang awak.
Me: (points mentioned: full name, siblings and course taken. I was blank on what else to say lol)
IV: Ibu bapa awak?
Me: Mak saya seorang pegawai Eksekutif manakala ayah saya merupakan seorang pemandu Grab.
IV: surprised Oh, menarik tu pemandu Grab.
Me: (I briefly talked about what he worked as before, and why he quit)
IV: Banyak juga dapat eh jadi Grab. (God knows where she knows but I assumed maybe my parents' paycheck IS with her after all, who knows?) Boleh awak bagitahu saya nama Sultan Selangor?
Me: *says the full name with title and ibni*
IV: Awak tahu Raja Muda siapa?
Me: Tahu. *says his name with title*
IV: Awak pernah dengar pasal IPR?
Me: Pernah.
IV: Apa yang awak tahu?
Me: Dulu dikenali dengan Merakyatkan Ekonomi Selangor dan sekarang ditukar nama kepada Insentif Peduli Rakyat.
IV: Contoh IPR tahu?
Me: *list 4 out of 17*
IV: Bagus juga awak tahu. Ramai yang saya tanya tak tahu pasal IPR. Mana awak tahu?
Me: IPR ada website sendiri. Kat situ ada tulis semua.
IV: Oh jadi memang awak ada buat research la.
Me: Haah. Dan kebetulan saya juga pengguna bas free tu, tu yang saya tahu hahah.
IV: Awak tahu ke pinjaman ni under siapa?
Me: (I lowkey wanna answer kerajaan Selangor lol) Uhh, Tabung Wang Selangor? (Cubaan menghentam sebab tak pasti)
IV: smirk Tak... tapi dekat dah tu, Tabung Kewangan Wang Biasiswa Negeri Selangor (TKWBNS). Kita bukan dari Yayasan Selangor ye, ramai yang salah faham. ((TAKE NOTE GUYS)) Awak ada dapat tak SMS untuk semakan haritu?
Me: Ada ada!
IV: Nanti dalam 2-3 minggu awak akan dapat lagi SMS untuk buat semakan lagi ye. Ok itu sahaja.
Me: Oh. (dalam hati, bapak cepat tu je dia nak tahu?!) Ok terima kasih.

SIDE NOTE: Hands off the table while being interviewed. I was being too confident that my hand naturally rested on top of the table until I realised I was the only one who did. The rest was very sopan, and the other candidates were all boys at that time lol. K buat malu perempuan je.

End. Everything mentioned was mostly what happened. I started the interview around 9.06am and left the place by 9.13am. Shortest interview I've ever been to.

I already excused myself from my morning class and even handed my letter of absentee but I still came in knowing they were all doing cabling. So sad I have never done it before while some of my friends have even done it few times. Apa la nasib budak IT tak pernah buat cabling huhuhu.

Stay tuned and read the outcome on my next posts!


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Did I ever tell you that I've NEVER attended an award ceremony for my academic achievements at school?? Yeah I'm that unappreciated. But I did received multiple appreciation for my extra-curricular, so I'm all good guys.

A day before my first academic award ceremony, which was held on Wednesday the 13th, I received a pdf of the namelist of people who received Dean's list within my faculty from my class' chat group. I saw it. I opened it. Found my name. Got all proud. Then forget it all by the following day. Or even within just a couple minutes. Wasn't just me right?

I literally thought that namelist was simply to claim our certificates. Nothing more. Boy, was I wrong. I went to class wearing a mere faculty shirt the next morning, nothing fancy only to find out it's an award CEREMONY. /shock

I had no time to go back to my room and get changed so meh, I yolo-ed. Though I've probably had looked non-surprisingly messy, but I could've been wayyy out of place with anything lesser so I felt good enough. 

The ceremony was due for the past 3 semesters, so my faculty combined all the recipients and it totaled up to around 400 achievers for that event. Among all, I was one of them. Out of all the semesters, I only received for one and it was for my first semester lol. At least got something laa.

*tears of blessed*
I wasn't that proud because I felt like I got away with it by luck, not so much of effort. But this event sparks a little excitement for me to go further in academics. I may have not been a top student back in the day. I might never have worked hard like everybody else, but at least now I know I can. Cos I literally just did! Anyone else can, trust me. Their way and my way will never look exactly the same. I can't believe it took me so long to make my own recipe for this. Just like how I should be doing in my studies.

Getting a Dean's list is probably nothing. A perfect pointer might seemed pointless 5 years from now on (#punintended), but it at least would mean something special as a mark to the beginning of a long run. I wanna dream big, because deep inside I know I can achieve them someday insya'Allah. I wanna live loving what I do and blessed for doing so. I'm not gonna limit myself to other people's wishes anymore... They're getting tiring to deal with.

"Betulkan yang biasa, biasakan yang betul"

Gotta stick with my plan. If it failed, I'll just re-map the way. Done. Let's live that faithful life from now on shall we?


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If you are on a laptop and you can hear an annoying buzzing sound every time you plugged in your earphone (like mine did), here's a quick solution!

Check the laptop's battery at the bottom of your laptop and make sure it is LOCKED. Even if you have no battery inserted (like when you have the power on), just make sure the slider thingy isn't unlock. And that should solve it. Well at least it did in my case...

The lil slider with this symbol means 'locked'.
I've been thinking that it must've been my earphone that's having issues, but the weird thing is it's newly bought! I tried all the noise cancelling options yet nothing worked. Turns out the battery locking was the problem and not the earphone or sound system smh.

UPDATE: Turns out this method doesn't work for me anymore like it once did. Instead try to restart your PC, maybe that'll help.

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"Menghalalkan yang haram"

Or making the wrong right. Without realising, it's what the world had slowly become. Many think that logic is enough, especially in religion and that's why each of us have different point of views.

However, as a Muslim, the Holy Quran and the Prophet's teachings are my guidelines. 

Here I wanna say smtg about non-Muslim... things that they don't get. And also things that Muslims sometimes forget or neglect (myself included).

Recently, I came across 2 similar situations whereby these 2 non-Muslim aunties had said to me. Ok, the first situation.

It was on one of my promoter days where I am working until the late evening in KL. As this auntie (who I was working with) and I were deciding to leave earlier (to avoid traffic), I then told her "I think before we go, I should pray here first in case I couldn't make it in time before the next prayer comes".

Simply that. It was for my Asar (evening prayer). And I was expecting some sort of 'ok' or an agreement to my request like what I usually hear. Surprisingly, she insisted me to stay at the booth. She didn't directly said it though.

She said, "I heard you can replace later. It's ok if you don't pray now."

And that point, I was slightly offended. This is why I hate when Muslims make it sound so easy to skip prayers. Over the slightest matter. We tend to not consider our best to perform it, just because we let our 'logic' take over. 

'Oh, there's no surau here, no need to pray la'... 'It's already 10 minutes til the next prayer, pray later together la'...

I get it. I do this too. But this isn't right, guys.

In my situation, I stayed silent because I wanna hear her point of view further.

That auntie then said, "God is merciful". Yep I agree. "He won't punish you just because you don't pray once". Ok, I see where you're coming from. "One time, I had work and just so happen I also have a Church event the same day. So I lied to the company and made up some excuses. See, God won't punish me because I told a white lie. I did it to do what He would've pleases"

Alright. Here's my say. What's wrong with me praying then? If you would make up such a lie to be at a Church event, I don't get why you're lecturing me into not praying. I don't know about other religion, but in Islam, being consistent in remembrance is the key. Skipping a prayer won't make us forget God obvs, but performing all 5 prayers could avoid us from making more inevitable sin for our own good insya'Allah.

Have you ever tried stop doing something for only once, then you notice that you started giving excuses again and again? Eventually, it's what would get us to believe 'it's ok to not do it' all together. But take the MANY verses in the Quran regarding solat for instance, Allah has said it Himself so many times. Doesn't that itself explain its importance?

And a white lie? Lying itself is like a sickness, doing it for your own sake is one thing. But telling others to do the same? Don't even bother.

Personally, I used to always want the time of the month to come by. Because I didn't wanna pray. It somewhat feels like I have more time during the day if I didn't have to pray. But as I grow up, I find that every time I am on my period and that I couldn't perform the prayers, I'd feel bad. I don't just feel that I lost the connection with Him through all 5 solat, but I also feel like I'm forgetting Him. Why? Because through solat comes remembrance, through solat comes forgiveness and if I don't cling on to my Creator, who else would be there for me? Solat is a way of reaching out to Him at times we're drowned into the world.

She said, "God won't burden us with bad things. We do good to Him and he shall do good to us". Well, if God doesn't provide any bad in our lives, what makes us repent then? You see, we aren't angels. If you decide that whenever He gives bad incidents that he is mad at you, you're wrong. In any cases, it's because he loves you more. There will always be challenges and test towards our faith despite us doing good or bad. If bad things keeps piling up, they're not always your fault. At times, it is to keep you closer instead. Don't be prejudice towards Allah. No plan can be better than His.

She later asked me why Muslims women cover our hair and body.

Explaining to a non-Muslim isn't always easy because we don't wanna be giving a different meaning. I simply said because men doesn't see things the way we women think.

Islam knows that and protect the women from the lustful eyes of men. They are attracted to our curves, our fair skin, our neck, our body and us in general. This is how Allah protects us. But ofc, we women won't believe that because many see to believe. Again, logic.


FYI, before Asar I already went for Zuhur (afternoon prayer) and I usually rest besides praying, so I took longer time than simply just ablution and pray. Probably, she also didn't want me to leave that long again lol. I managed to pray at the LRT anyway.


Moving on to the second situation. I had a facial treatment this one morning and this auntie performed laser treatment on my face. She warned me not to wash my face til night time because it could've stop the laser from doing its job. I was being understanding, but I also couldn't help from asking "If later I need to pray, how?" in hope for an alternative, and she just told me to not apply so much water. So I figured, I could just do the wajib but then she said again, "Or you can just not pray. Don't worry, God won't punish you".

In my mind I was like, damn dejavu. I didn't say anything more because guess what? There IS a solution. And it's Tayammum. Ablution using dust instead.

I guess the word 'praying' isn't as impactful as it is to other religion nowadays hmm. 


Note to self and all my Muslim friends: Be a better Muslim, so that we can show the best Islam. When there's a will, there's a way.

To my non-Muslim readers: I don't blame you for not knowing. But we plead for your respect towards our beliefs and to say things like that only portray your ignorance, even if you didn't mean any harm.

Before I leave you, here's a brief yet meaningful explanation on why we always hear the phrase "SOLAT TIANG AGAMA" while growing up. Please do take a moment to listen:



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This would be one of those daily ramble again.

Now, I'm not sure about something. Sometimes I realise I don't have much requests both towards people and myself. I might be wrong from others' point of view though haha. But one moment, I'd think I'm doing it right. Like this is exactly the gratefulness that I'm supposed to have. That everyone should. Just accepting what we've been given and stop wanting all the non-beneficial things in our lives. In short, be a minimalist or live in moderation. 

The way I see it, having an 'ok' outcome for anything is always good enough. An ok relationship, an ok amount of money, an ok living family, an ok edited video, an ok written poem... I really feel easily satisfied with stuff. And I don't find anything wrong with that. /nobigdeal

However, I'm reminding myself to never settle for less.

Getting something that we don't think we deserve is very unhealthy. We will find regrets soon enough, we will resent the things we could've gotten but we didn't, and most of all we won't feel the need to work harder - which in fact is the opposite of feeling satisfied or settling down. We need to work harder and not settle for less because that's how we keep things moving and exciting. But if I'm easily satisfied, then how would that help me??

I'm so confused with what's right right now. I am conflicting against my own stand. Just so you know, I am someone who isn't easily influenced by people. That is one of the reason, I don't really keep up with trends. I live my life comfortably rather than pleasingly. Which I know as a matter of fact bothers many people somewhat. I do keep some advices into account but like the very few some, bcos like I said, I try not to go against my own stand. 

Anyway, that's my thoughts for now. Thanks for reading hahah even though this doesn't conclude anything. IF YOU HAVE AN ADVICE, PLS FEEL FREE TO SHARE. Who knew, your opinion may actually help in finding the right stand for me. /please


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Another year has passed,
Hope our friendship could last,
5 fun years having a best friend by my side,
Though our times are mostly filled with only boybands in mind,
Please let us be longer than 1D,
While getting stronger individually,
But we thank them for being the relating factor,
That brought two worlds apart together.

Dear bestie,
You are the reason I'm keeping in touch,
Nobody else clings as badly as you,
We survived multiple years in class together,
Even our parents got bored of seeing us two,
But I appreciate everything that you do,
Your experienced advices, your medical treatments,
Your bossy yet understanding blabbers,
Your whining and negative point of view,
There's so many good and bad but without it I'd lose you,
You stayed even when I tore your fragile heart,
You accepted my ugly self as much as I did,
Even after countless requests for a visit to the dermatologist,
Maybe later if not soon,
Trust me and don't worry I will try my best to improve.

On the inside you are surprisingly dark and moody,
Very contrast with the layers that you put up,
But that darkness doesn't seem so bad,
They're just signs of rebellious act,
The only thing that lights is probably your heart beneath,
Because it cares too much until you feel stuck in between.

Your short temper could be better when you think of the regrets you'll get later,
It is mostly caused by the short judgments and quick actions,
They bring nothing but future disappointments,
Be wise, doesn't need to be precise,
Keep your flaws,
Enjoy your true nature,
It's the only way you can have unique patterns of your true colours.

Dear bestie,
You know I love us as much as you do,
We could be mistaken for part time lovers, who knew?
Let's keep having fun and our dreams alive,
Keep adding memories and plans for our future trips,
Coping up with you isn't as bad, as you tryna deal with my special needs,
There's not much more I'd like to say,
Hope a happy birthday would be ok.


THE SPOKEN VERSION:



I don't wanna simply delete this off my poetry blog's draft box, so here you go.


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I probably had been wanting to do this since ever - becoming a content creator. Like yknow, actually doing something I like and share my talent with the world. But sadly, what talent is there? Everything to me just always felt off somewhere.

Little did I know, I actually became pretty useful this time around. I at least got something I had planned, done. Even when it took me so long to get moving.

Anyway, if you've read the introductory post to my poetry blog, you'd probably knew my 'future plan'. One of it was to make a podcast of my poems, basically turning them into spoken word poetry. But guess what? I scraped that plan out and decided to just go with a video. Like how I DID NOT decided to. Sooo predictable of me...

HERE'S THE OUTCOME:


A FREAKIN LYRIC VIDEO WOHOO!!

Made it using After Effects but tbh, I barely made use of its whole function lol. Still... I'd say I kinda enjoy editing in AE.

There's SO MUCH MORE to learn blerghh. Let's see how long this lasts. My poetry blog has been dead for a week now. Handlettering is another tiring thing to learn. Learning is always so frustrating haiih. Anyway, hope you like that short video of my poem (which really didn't felt that short when editing). Insya'Allah better content will be up soon!


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This post is a respond to one of my favourite (small) YouTube channel's video - New Age Creators. On this week's Monday, Orin asked the question in his video: WHERE'S HOME TO YOU?

You can watch the short video on his brief explanation to understand better where I am coming from here:


So I didn't do much thinking and my answer is... the toilet. And by that, I meant the bathroom or the restroom or whatever you international folks call it. So you must be thinking, "Setan sangat tu" (jk that's what I told myself lol) or basically just how disgusting that answer might've sounded.

Obviously there's a reason for that answer. 

Orin mentioned the place you call home is where you feel most comfortable at. And for him, that kind of place changes time to time.

The walls of the small space is the very few walls that have seen everything I have. My bare face, the uneven skintone, the not-so-eye-pleasing body and most importantly, they've witnessed my true identity. I wake up every morning sometimes feeling great so I will constantly smile at the mirror in the toilet, or other times I would cry sitting on the toilet seat wondering about life and its difficulty. After all those, washing through my sorrow will then felt good.

Most of all, I tend to feel relaxed here. It's a place you can pamper yourself, be all emotional, speak some truth and have deep conversations alone. My current situation hits me more than ever as I am away from my real 'home' a.k.a the house I live in. Staying in a hostel or a dorm isn't always peaceful, so the toilet could somewhat be an escape to me in order to stay sane, especially during hard times.

Don't get me wrong, I don't wanna live and sleep and eat in the toilet. This is only the conceptual meaning of it all that suits my current situation. And as much as Orin made me think, give it a thought... where is YOUR home?


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A lot of things that I've done, don't necessarily make me happy. Some things I did just to please others. Other things just to show off. Most people do too. And I'm starting to think, social media is such a bad money-driven platform. No matter how much I am rooting for my own grounds, it seems that other people is always flaunting their good sides of life that keeping up just makes it harder.

I always ask myself WHY? Why do I feel obligated to show my happiness to the world? Why is everybody trying hard to do that? Then behind all those happy-go-lucky projections, there'll be this drastic change of sadness. Out of a sudden. People begin saying how depressed they are, how life's not been treating them well, how everybody just had it better, how it had not been a good year... Then it got me asking again - WHY? After showing off like that for good several weeks or months or even years, you decided to crawl into your darkest pit and suffer then why did it in the first place? Oh yeah, obligations.

The problem is we are made up like this. Everyone needs to keep up with the trends. If you don't know, that's it, you're a weirdo. We can't be friends.

Speaking of friends, I can't help but to see friendships on social media as a momentary thing. I feel like the more showing off there are, the less likely things are to stay. May Allah forbids. But that's another problem. The moment we stop posting happy pictures, people question our happiness. When we don't show the happy friendship that we have, the friendship somewhat would sink. Again, an obligation.

So now, if I were to do things for people, I'd find a better reason to. I won't settle for any of them. Why? Because humans are disloyal and people changes. Expectation and promises won't lasts. I think this is the big problem that causes it all - our reasons.

My solution? Don't make people as my reason. Myself included. 

But one thing about me is I have Allah the Almighty. If I am in doubt of my reasons, I'd be sure to ask if He pleases. Because in the end of my day, there's no one else to please other than Him. If I were to die in whatever I am doing, I'd like it if my reasons were the right ones. And great thing is I can never go wrong with this. Like how Allah is never wrong to us, we would never be wrong with Him. If I were to give up my happiness for anyone, I'd gladly let that be Him insya'Allah.

May me and you, be in the love He pleases Amiin.


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Where did I find this promoter job?
Facebook events and promoters group pages which you can simply join if you like. Usually without any issue.

But the real question is HOW did I get it??
Getting a job is like playing a game. You gotta live by the rules. In this prospect, the timing needs to be right. 

When there's a job posting, the sooner you get in touch, the better. I applied to maybe around 20 jobs before I finally get a respond. Usually the ones that will not reply are those on job portals. Mainly bcos by the time you came across anything and submit your profile, there would be tons of application already being sent. And you wouldn't even be aware of your lateness bcos they would not usually show the time and date of the job posting for you to keep track.

I applied mine about an hour or 2 after the job posting and got a call an hour later. Special thanks to Ka Mun for coming across the post 2 minutes after they've posted on FB ahah. Also if you don't get a reply within 2 working days, move on. Considering I got a call so quickly, I'd say they'll contact you back within the same day if you are really needed.

How's the pay?
From the ones I see, ranging from RM80 to RM120 per day. Usually RM100/day. For a 11-9 job, it is a good deal. 

Which day of the week should I expect to work as a promoter?
Weekends. And holidays. Expecting a promoters's job on weekdays is quite limited for malls and hypermarkets because the crowd isn't as many, so the need for promoters can be very minimal. Plus, take note that jobs on weekdays as a promoter will be even more tiring, when the pay are equally the same. You gotta stand and wait for some sort of crowd to make an ambush, but at the same time you know it ain't happening bcos everyone else's working.

What self-profile should I send in?
Usually they would ask for basic details (name, age, IC, address, etc.) and the crucial of all - your working experiences. Having a resume that you can just copy paste around is good enough for this kind of job. 

Before applying for promoter's jobs, it's best to have a proper part time beforehand so you can get a picture of what these jobs usually need (like doing product sampling, in-store promoting, concept of FIFO and etc.). Basically, having basic working background would boost your chance on getting the job. This is because employers usually need promoters in an urgent manner and training a complete newbie isn't exactly easy and can be time consuming. Some jobs may be easy enough to not require any sort of experience, but just keep this in mind.

Do they provide training?
Some yes, but don't expect a step-by-step run down of what-to-do kind of training. You'll probably just be given a quick briefing regarding the product you are promoting and things that you should know (like sales target and the targeting audience). However, your actual work usually requires more of self-learning on what to do because most things they would've assumed that you already know.

I am a Malay/ Chinese/ Indian. I am a male/ female. I only know Malay/ English/ Mandarin. Will there be a job for me?
Absolutely. However based on what I see, most job calls for female, then mostly Chinese. Next is speaking in Mandarin/ Cantonese. But if you aren't female or aren't Chinese or don't know any Chinese Language, it's OK. You just need to find harder. Those are just the majority aspects for this kind of job.


That's all from me. Good luck on your job hunting! Remember, being a bum isn't always bad... Lol jk, go get a job!


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I had the NEW McDonald's Spicy Korean Burger on its releasing day which was on the 25th July. I was already out with Ka Mun and we both thought we should try it while we're at it. But we found out then and there that it was a beef burger. We seriously thought that it'd be a chicken burger. Like how Korean are also famous for its fried chicken but boy, were we wrong... Since it's beef, our Ms. Leong here cannot eat them. But for me, I really wanna give it a try so I was the only one who ordered it. 



When I first opened the box, the burger looked very messy. There's all kinds of veggies inside and they were all spilling out. The patty looked similar to any other beef patties - thin and plain dark - nothing surprising. The only sauce I noticed was the cheese on the veggies. I took my first bite without dipping in the chili sauce because I wanted to try the pure taste of it. And little did I know, I never dipped my burger in at all. 

The first bite took me a long time trying to digest the spiciness. Initially, I thought the spice was really lacking. But after I chewed on longer, they finally hit those taste buds. The burger was goood. Something about the patty just seemed right. The kimchi sauce that marinates it plus the combination between the charcoal bun and the cheese sauce really boost up the taste. I loved it!! The spiciness was on-point for me.

I don't know if it's just me, but the size of the burger felt satisfying too. I took quite a number of bites so it was enough for me. 

It also came with the crispy cut-fries. They're very little compared to the usual french fries. It's crispy, but it really felt like eating a mini cracker rather than fried potato. I prefer the normal fries. Or at least the cut-fries can be made bigger in size so it'll be more worth it.

The price though... was expensive. I get that it's a promotional burger, but RM16 for a medium set with small amount of cut-fries, quite a bum. Even BurgerLab's charcoal burgers can get much more filling with that same price. I didn't know we can get a Fanta grape OR the usual coke for it, and I usually don't take coke so I changed it (not knowing Fanta grape is part of the promotion) to a Sprite... boooo!! Talk about not being well-informed. Ugh.

Overall, McDonald's Spicy Korean Burger is worth a try. I'd eat it again if I get the chance to. I think having ala-carte would be a good option for this burger considering the fries are just meh. So I'd give it a 7/10 for the great and tasty burger. Hopefully a chicken version would be up next!


Disclaimer: NOT A SPONSORED POST. I just enjoy eating the burger. 


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I don't know how many times has this thought occurred to me, but being at home (bcos sem break) just makes it even clearer. I don't think I'm an extrovert. I really don't think I am. Funny because I don't seem like the kind who's not. People would think I'm bubbly, have a lot of friends, smart and outspoken but truth is... not exactly.

As I'm typing this, my friends are currently chatting away in our whatsapp group and I've been ignoring them for a few hours now. Just don't feel like talking with anyone, really. And for the record, I don't have that many friends. Even my dad asks, don't I have any other friends. Having people around just makes life far more complicated and I am such a simple being. Therefore, I tried to avoid dramas.

But then again, life is life and drama will always be a part of it. For example, I had an unresolved issue with one of my closest friends. It sucks considering I don't have that many friends. Sucks more bcos we were very close. A couple of days ago, I realised she's been updating her stories really often. It's always her hangouts and whereabouts with her friends (whom she still cherish to her heart's content and would include sweet af captions on every posts with them). I know those are normal nowadays bcos pretty much everybody does that (myself included), but obvs once you feel ill-hearted towards someone those stuff in particular would bother your day and night like no other. So I did what I had to - which is to mute her stories on whatsapp and Instagram. Hopefully she wasn't notified on that. But now, I don't know why I'm still reaally bothered by her in general.

Also, for the past week my grandma had been asking me to buy her kuih every tea time and this had been bugging me. To me, it takes such an effort to go out. Even from my room. I dislike going out for a short period of time. It's just never worth it. So whenever I did, I would grab the simplest thing to wear - an instant headscarf and a jacket. I wear kain batik at home. It became my thing since last year when I saw my roommate wearing it. Going out, obvs kain batik is so taboo and people would think I'm a "mak nenek" or smtg so I'd always change to a pants just for the sake of leaving the house looking decent. Since I don't use that pants at home and so does the jacket and headscarf, I pretty much would rewear them every time I go out. Literally. For the whole week. I admit that I look damn hideous and I always pray that I won't meet with anyone I know. At all. It's pretty embarrassing but then again, who am I tryna look nice for? Even the Pakcik kuih won't even look at me when talking smh. 


Yeah... I am pretty lifeless right now. All I do is eat, sleep, repeat and loads of thinking and figuring things out in my head. I really miss blogging so I'd try to ramble whatever I can for as long as I am still not occupied. Until then, goodbye!


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I have an interesting story. You know at times, life can be really funny towards you. 

This evening I picked my mum up from the LRT instead of my dad. Well, at peak hours obviously the traffic wasn't so smooth so I had time to look around while sitting behind the wheel. So what happened was, my eyes caught a nice black Porsche trying to turn over a junction. I thought it was really cool so I said "Wahhh Porsche tuuu".

As I drove passed the Porsche, I saw the driver. I FRIGGIN SAW AND I FRIGGIN KNOW THAT GUY. I was just like "what what wHAT?". Ok as a matter of fact I knew he's loaded, he has always been. He is actually my brother's friend so he is a year older than me. 

But the funny thing is the last time we saw each other was at the driving school. That is the same guy who repeated his test twice and retook it along with other 18 year olds at that time (me included). Not to mention he could've failed again if it weren't for me. During the circuit test, we were supposed to walk from one JPJ officer to pass our candidate paper to another. We were all informed beforehand to not be stupid and buckle our seat-belts once we re-enter the car before continuing with the test again. Being the confident guy that he is, finally finishing off to his last hurdle... Ofc he just had to forget to re-wear his seat belt. Yeah and he became that stupid guy.

I was at the side just watching him and I could hear whispers from people saying "Oh no he's not wearing back his seat belt" and "Omg does he know?" or smtg similar to those. In case you didn't know, during the test all cars are required to lower the window so we can hear what the officer tells us from the outside. I felt really bad for him. We've not spoken to each other for ages and most times I only did as my brother's sister, never as a friend of mine. Why isn't anybody telling him that? Where are his friends? 

But in the end, I heard myself shouting out his name... twice. I was giving him gestures to buckle up and even the people around me turned to look. Malu la jugak but I am even more glad that I did what I did. He thanked me afterwards but ofc it's still awkward especially when I don't know how to react hahaha.


My point is, he being the guy who had to retake the test twice and could possibly had to redo it again because of a mere seat belt is now driving a Porsche. The Porsche that I happened to find cool, that I happened to look at right when he is driving... Hah what a coincidental life. Hopefully the JPJ never had to sue him for not wearing a seat belt in his damn cool Porsche lol.


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This post will just be about my thoughts and roughly my plan for the future.

Recently after my finals ended, I've been doing a lot of thinking and debating with myself. Like the things that I'm doing, the things that I say I'd do but never did, the things I wish I could do instead, and stuff like that. I noticed now that I don't enjoy the fun fun things much (Malays call it 'benda lagha'). I still like watching kdramas, listening to kpop, watching funny youtube vlogs but it's not as much as I did. I legit feel like I've somewhat grown lol.

The thing is I feel like I should be doing something but I don't know what. It's been a long time finding the thing that I am good at. My interest and my passion. Something I would enjoy doing that won't take too much of my time. Because I'm afraid of doing something then in the end I'll lose interest. I don't want that. I wanna go all out. I wanna try my best so that I won't regret, cos I tried. 

Funny, but I know that I'm not alone when talking about this. With so many successful kids out there, we can relate the pressure to rush.

Among all the things that I enjoy watching right now (which mostly are self-motivational vids), I kinda learn a lot of wise things that wake my lazy bum up. To not delay things anymore and to chase my dreams while I am young and have a long journey ahead. I wanna try and gain as much experience and skills that I can before I graduate my degree. That's the plan.

You know after ending my first year of diploma, I kinda wanna stop joining clubs and taking up positions. I just don't like how it interferes with my life last 2 semesters. I don't regret them, but it wasn't as fun as I thought. However, those vids kinda boost back my confidence and now I have a reason to. I may still not know what club but surely, time will tell. I'd rather be torn out now than have my resume empty with useless skills. At least that's what keeps me motivated.

So now, I've decided. I've created a new blog that dedicates to all my poems. I wanna see how much I can grow there. It doesn't have to be successful. I just feel like putting something up that I can be proud of in the future. That won't make me seem dull and incapable. The reason why it's not on this blog is because I like how personal it is here. Not many knows about my existence here and no one really read all my posts. But then again, they're really personal stuff so it's better that way.

My other blog is up on Wordpress (WP) and there's a reason why it's not on Blogger even when I've been a user since primary school. I see WP as a more professional and proper website to share with people. Rather than using Blogger which seems more like a child's play. And I learn that WP actually have better statistics count compared to Blogger and it track viewer counts more accurately which I like. But ofc, WP is a bit limited for free users and it's actually quite confusing to use. Fortunately so far, it still get things done so I'm ok. 

Check out my poetry blog here.

Plus, I also made use of my hand lettering as the featured image for each post. I just started it and I thought it'll be better to include images in my blog that I can create on my own. So this idea came along to combine those two things, thus the name. I probably suck so bad but at least I made the effort.

I actually plan on making videos on my poetry and make a channel for it, but I'm just not ready yet... in the future insyaAllah. For now, I probably will consider making podcasts for spoken word poetry and definitely will share it when that happens. 

Last but not least, I also created a Facebook Page dedicated to my poetry YAYYY!! It's called 'Poetry Lettering', you can search it up or just click here. I plan on posting all my updates there along with new posts on my blog so 'like' it and wait for more of my crappy poetry. And I know many don't use fb anymore bcos there's other fun social platforms, BUT I figured I need a place for people who solely are interested in my work in the first place and where I can link to my blog easily. Tbh I wanna keep it lowkey, that's why I don't prefer sharing on my personal Instagram account. I did once, but I don't think I should do it frequently.

And so far, I like what I'm doing. There's more to learn and to improve and I can slowly do that. I'm just gonna show a whole lot of progress happening. That's why this started. It's all about the process, not success.


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