In between start and end

I wanted to tell you,
How cute your haircut is,
How attractive you look wearing that jacket,
How I love taking long walks together,
How I don't mind waiting at the station for more than an hour,
How happy I am when you finally appeared,
How sleepless my nights thinking of you,
How amazing it felt to see you in my dreams,
How excited I am when you reply my message,
How I love seeing you get mad at me,
How I didn't mean all the 'bodoh' I said,
How innocent your appearance seem,
How inferior I feel when you're texting in front of me,
How my laughter is meant for all your silliness,
How I wish you could spoil me like my family does,
How you're the only guy I first hang out with,
How silence isn't a bad thing for us two,
How I appreciate when you open up to me,
How your jokes aren't even that funny,
How you always walk in front leading the way,
How independently you have been raised,
How adorable your smile is when that layered teeth shows,
How I've always wanted to take our selfie,
How happy I am when you glance back at me,
How I like it when you text me right after we parted,
How crazy you make me feel,
How I hope our friendship lasted,
In the end, finally....
How I am grateful we friendzoned each other,
Secretly wished you'd noticed all this,
Also wish you kinda feel the same way.

Credits to Asianwiki

I remembered saying more like complaining about my mum's old car that would be mine ONLY IF I am brave enough to drive on my own.

Last week, I was teasing my lil' brother bcos he always go home with his friend instead of walking home. Then he jokingly said that since I'm home, I could go fetch and send him to school so it would probably save his friend's mum the trouble. Sekolah dekat pun nak orang hantar haih.

Guess what my mum said tho? "OK" She actually agreed to this kid's idea. Wah ma. Time orang mintak taknak bagi. Now, this works as my everyday 'training' before I could drive any further... kononnya.

Starting Monday this week, I drove him to school and picked him up afterwards. And now I admit that I've been making dangerous mistakes almost every single day. No kidding.

Like on Monday as I was sending him off, I was so close in crashing into the back of a bus. That's what happens when you drive behind a bus as it is approaching a freaking bus stop. Next time, don't drive directly behind a bus. There's always the other lane. Also, break if you think the car (or in my case that kura-kura taxi) on the next lane couldn't tell about your dying situation.

Tuesday was nothing bizarre. I maybe should just practice not simply turning at junctions before looking properly.

On Wednesday, I made a U-Turn at a random junction bcos I entered the wrong way. That junction also happened to be a gated entry into someone else's neighbourhood. As I was reversing, I almost hit the car behind if it wasn't for the guard who was passing by to warn me about it. Since I took the wrong route and the traffic got worse by then, I ended up being so late that my brother already reached home when I arrived. Thanks to his friend's mum. Penat-penat orang tunggu traffic light 4 kali merah hmm.

Then Thursday fuhh probably worst day of all... I got bleeped twice!! One bcos the driver wanted to tell me to go first, which was nothing bad. And second, bcos the freaking car was speeding yet I still cross the road omg. Damn scary experience. It was my fault tho. But if you ask me, I didn't see the speeding car when I decided to go for it. All I see was the one car turning to the direction I am heading towards.

So lesson learnt, wait until there are no cars before crossing bcos some risks aren't worth dying for. And there must be a reason the car on the opposite side wasn't moving forward lol.


I really hope I can be more careful and not get traumatized so early in my training period. Mistakes are inevitable but accidents can get ugly. Minta-mintalah dijauhkan, amiin. Remember to pray every time naik kenderaan yaa.


Dropping by,
Melynn.